In the past week and a half Jarrah has had five seizures. It started on Saturday 20th and we thought it might be a one-off; after speaking to the on call vet, I made an appointment for the following Monday and they took some blood. Blood tests showed nothing remarkable so we agreed that we'd just monitor him. Days passed and we figured, yay, just an anomaly. But then on the weekend, he had another – much shorter, but still a concern. Then on Monday night, another. Then another on yesterday morning at 4am, and another at 9am. I was able to get another vet appointment and we discussed options. We can do more extensive (and expensive) blood tests but the vet isn't sure it would offer much extra info. We can also do imaging to see if it's a tumour – however, that involves a specialist, a fair bit of travel, and lots of money. I suggested that knowing if there were a tumour won't help anyway, right? They can't do surgery and I wouldn't want to put Jarrah through surgery or chemo/radiotherapy. The vet agreed and is very supportive of low level intervention as much as possible. So we're trying an anti seizure medicine. He's had four doses so far. And no seizures in the last 30 hours. This is good news but we're not out of the woods... But then, nothing is ever guaranteed so we'll take what we can get. If the medicine doesn't work, we have to make some hard decisions. The thought makes me cry. But also, I know I have loved him as much as I could, every day that he's lived with us, and I'll continue to do so, probably forever, no matter how long he has left. A reminder to be here now, and not cry about what's to come, right? #dogs #ThingsILove #BeHereNow #death #illness
